The holidays

Well the week so far has been ok, I have had a couple of time feeling realy down, however they pass.
On friday i went to the Halloween cosplay competition at my local manga club as C.T. Smith from the manga zombie powder (i didn't win) on Saturday i went to the cinema  and saw johny english reborn and it was Amazing :) sunday was rowing not done much else yesterday i went to my grandparents and so on but not much really

:)

matthew

At long last

the last couple to days have been relatively good for me, yesterday i had my last day of lessons and today i went to a lecture at Oxford uni :) I finished my cosplay costume for tomorrow and most importantly in my opinion, I got a hug yesterday. You would not believe how much happier i have felt since then however i have the misfortune of being on holiday for a week before i will see anyone again however that does mean i have time to catch up on my essays :)  besides a week isn't that long

The Weekend

well , the weekend hasn't been the worst and i have achieved some things that needed doing,
yesterday i went to the fair and bought a gun for my cosplay :) and today i sorted my christmas list and bought my clothes for rowing, i didnt fall in at rowing and helped to burn all the trees that we cut up yesterday when we sorted and tidied the garden

some days are just . . .

today has been a semi sort of boring day, I spent a fair amount of time with the two girls who i mentioned in previous posts yet was unable to ask them about what i wanted, i returned a volume of zombie powder, renewed another and withdrew 4books from the library and set up my well topic apart from that not much happened however there is still that heaviness in my heart and hopefully there will be a chance i can ask tomorrow i can but hope 

I just want a hug

Do you ever know the sort of days where everything that can go wrong, goes wrong. Well i have had a day sort of similar, firstly several things did go wrong such as leaving the freezer open last night night slightly and forgetting my maths book with the homework in. It wasn't so bad because a couple of the very kind girls in my life came and helped me sort my head out and pointed out that it wasn't all bad and so on. I managed to have a chat with them about my problems however i couldn't say everything because some things that i were feeling and thinking would have been inappropriate, because they are not the sort of things you say to good friends of the opposite gender without some slightly embarrassing situations potentialy arising. So i  just leave it inside, it is something i have wanted to ask them for some while but have always felt that it would not be right. hopefully putting this down in writing will make me feel better because now i am alone again the same dreadful feeling has returned with a vengeance, hopefully when i see them tomorrow either the feeling will recede once again or i can pluck up the courage to ask.
 matthew

Welcome to my life

In the past I have contemplated about blogging before, writing up my thoughts for others. After a few friends from different groups have suggested in the last few days that I write a blog, well here it is.
 At long last i have felt bothered enough to come and create another space for me on line. I do not promise to use it all the time, every day however i will when i feel the need.

matthew