The past few days have been horrible for me in some ways, there are costumes yet to be done and Christmas pressies to be ordered amongst everything else. However by and large most things in life are going ok.
I have yet another music teacher as the previous one has left and my rowing coach is leaving as well in December. as such they have both said that they will write in my dofe booklet for so far :)
that was the good news unfortunately.
As many of you may be aware i have been doing fairly well with not loosing control over the past few months or so, however yesterday I came so close to losing control completely, and it hasn't ever been that bad since i managed to get it under control. I was scared, frightened and angry, so angry I could have hurt somebody relay badly, as it was i was only barely able to calm down and sort myself out, I was seething and i did not like it one bit. and to be honest i thing it could possibly happen at school some time soon with all the pressure mounting up and so on
tomorrow is the dress rehearsal and Thursday is when it all begins as such, the tickets have been sold and there is no backing out at this point in the production
yesterday i cleaned the steps for the rat run to the stage and today mr boileau and miss launder said that they have never seen them so clean :)
I shall update soon
until next time
Matthew
Monday, 28 November 2011
Wednesday, 23 November 2011
8 days and counting
AS of now we only have 8 days till the first performance f as you like it by william Shakespeare, however there is a problem, we still have the best part of 20 costumes still to make. We are catching up as usual and we have been given the green room early but out of the next 9 days, 8 are being used doing something for the play, as such life is beyond hectic, and the stress is really starting to get to some people, Mr boileau and miss launder especially.
At explorers this week the air ambulance is visiting and next week we have a shooting competition,
i will miss the next two weeks rowing, :( and i will miss cubs as well. however there will be the performances and this will be the first time i will watch the play as on Friday i will have to study it :)
I will be assisting om the get in etc as well as other important stuff, making tea. Hopefully next year it wont be so bad.
on another note i completed angry birds chrome (all 210 stars) an i have had a chat with Mrs walley about various people in my life and what i should be careful of (very useful as i had picked up on barely anything ) And i think am sure in my mind.
As such i still question myself as to why it always worse at night when i am falling asleep, however generally apart from that i don't feel as lonely and as bad as i have done in the past witch is all good
I hope that all of my problems can be resolved soon and that i don't mess up relations with some good frinds along the way, Wish me luck people :)
At explorers this week the air ambulance is visiting and next week we have a shooting competition,
i will miss the next two weeks rowing, :( and i will miss cubs as well. however there will be the performances and this will be the first time i will watch the play as on Friday i will have to study it :)
I will be assisting om the get in etc as well as other important stuff, making tea. Hopefully next year it wont be so bad.
on another note i completed angry birds chrome (all 210 stars) an i have had a chat with Mrs walley about various people in my life and what i should be careful of (very useful as i had picked up on barely anything ) And i think am sure in my mind.
As such i still question myself as to why it always worse at night when i am falling asleep, however generally apart from that i don't feel as lonely and as bad as i have done in the past witch is all good
I hope that all of my problems can be resolved soon and that i don't mess up relations with some good frinds along the way, Wish me luck people :)
Saturday, 12 November 2011
Sorry
To my blog,
I apologise that i have neglected to update you over the past couple of weeks, however they have been eventful in some ways and not so in others. Unfortunately I still feel the loneliness every night as I fall asleep and I doubt that there is much i do to change that without considerable risk to my friendships with certain people and i am fairly sure that around now is probably one of the worst times of the year to ask. More to the point i have no idea of any way that i could find out or tell how she feels.
On another, happier, note I attended a lecture on neutrinos at Oxford uni by Frank Close; it was very interesting to see as it was more about the histories about them and high lighting some of the tragic events that occurred along the way,(mainly all the people who missed out on Nobel prises).
Changing subject once again I have unfortunately been neglecting my homework and so on recently a little because of various events, e.g. the release of inheritance by Christopher Poilini, the BBT Abridged Movie and spending my free periods talking about wedding cake with close friends of mine.
Returning to the time of year, the school play is nearly upon us and as of last week we finally have all of the costume sheets in :)
I will try to keep up to date and return sooner next time
goodbye
Matthew
I apologise that i have neglected to update you over the past couple of weeks, however they have been eventful in some ways and not so in others. Unfortunately I still feel the loneliness every night as I fall asleep and I doubt that there is much i do to change that without considerable risk to my friendships with certain people and i am fairly sure that around now is probably one of the worst times of the year to ask. More to the point i have no idea of any way that i could find out or tell how she feels.
On another, happier, note I attended a lecture on neutrinos at Oxford uni by Frank Close; it was very interesting to see as it was more about the histories about them and high lighting some of the tragic events that occurred along the way,(mainly all the people who missed out on Nobel prises).
Changing subject once again I have unfortunately been neglecting my homework and so on recently a little because of various events, e.g. the release of inheritance by Christopher Poilini, the BBT Abridged Movie and spending my free periods talking about wedding cake with close friends of mine.
Returning to the time of year, the school play is nearly upon us and as of last week we finally have all of the costume sheets in :)
I will try to keep up to date and return sooner next time
goodbye
Matthew
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